I don't know

Honesty time...so far this year, I am being continually slapped upside the proverbial head with situations and decisions to which I am expected to have an answer or course of action, and inside said head, I am thinking "I don't know."  And big questions to, like with long term life implications, and mission related planning. It is both potentially extremely frustrating, and at the same time bringing me low enough to try to remember to trust in God.   

This week, Marvin and Maria took two days to visit Milk Project families with the pastors in Las Botijas and Talanga.  It has been great to see the churches and projects work more closely together...where there is a plan we do know!  To reach children, and their families, for Christ.  

What I don't know...how to get the remaining 20 sponsors we need for the children already in the Milk Project.  Expanding is great because more can be done, but it is hard financially when getting new sponsors is so slow.  

Jose Luis working in the clinic this year has been a great answer to a question we have had for years of how to better care for people spiritually at the clinic.  If you asked me in December 2023 how we were going to do that better this year, that definitely would have been a "I don't know" answer.  

The question going forward will be how to better disciple the people he is reaching, obviously more so for those living close by.  What is our responsibility/what should we do? 

There are ideas and thoughts, but right now...I don't know.  

And what about doing surgeries?  Yeah...we are working on that, but there are many "I don't know" aspects to that.  It is particularly overwhelming...both on logistics, but also the needed finances to do that, where, when, who...you get the idea.  

We have been praying about drilling a well in Las Botijas.  All this in the back of the Ford means preparations are underway.  Will the company come through, and in time before the rains make getting there not possible?  Will they find water?  Enough water?  Will it all work out?  

You know the answer.  

We had opportunity to visit the caves in Guasucaran last week with the medical team that was with us.  Looking into a cave can be a scary proposition, the darkness, the unknown, (the bats).

We are looking down the coming months, and years trying to plan, trying to prepare...both as a mission and personally, and right now, I am praying for no bats, and a peaceful light at the end of the tunnel, and not multiple trains.  

God knows...let's ask Him to move in these situations, and help us.  How will it work out?  I don't know.  But I know the One who does.  If it sometimes doesn't feel like that is enough, that's fine...but it is enough.