rendir

Rendir translated is surrender.  That word hit me hard this week.  Turns out, the definition is a little different than I would have thought in my head according to Google:  "​stop resisting to an enemy or opponent and submit to their authority."

It started with us losing the group that was to come this Saturday.  I could deal with that on some level, but as the consequences of that came of cancelling plans, construction projects, etc. (including removing the seats from the Ford) I was struggling a bit to accept the reality that God's timing is better than what I can see or want myself.  

Then, reading of a friend's recent joy of the birth of a child come with diagnosis of Down's Syndrome and heart issues.  Praying led to some internal conversations and limited intentionally sharing of that with God.  

And literally among that, interrupted by a phone call talking about these very issues...a podcast.  I was listening to a reader's question and how that led to a talk of surrendering to God through baptism, and living a life surrendered to Him.  

Surrender...stop resisting and submit to God's authority.  

I needed that reminder to slap me upside the head.  Whether it is groups, illness, personal travel plans, death...I can make plans, work the plan, and such...but ultimately, I have to surrender my plans, my desires, and my life to God.  

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